Dear Diary
I'm a girl recovering from sexual abuse.
This is a diary for my recovery, and it can be yours, too.
If you want to ask me a question, submit your own entry, make a comment, share a message, anything--I welcome you to do so. :)


"Let go of something negative right now."  - mhconsumer (via mhconsumer)

4 days ago with 158 notes
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Today’s mental health reminder: a relapse, a sudden series of attacks, a string of awful days, (or whatever your step back may be) does not decrease your value. Take your time, do some self care, reflect on the progress that you have made. You are strong; one step back is nothing when you look at the journey you have already made.

4 days ago with 55,263 notes
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"You are valuable because you exist. Not because of what you do or what you have done - but simply because you are."  - Max Lucado (via onlinecounsellingcollege)

3 weeks ago with 3,173 notes
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3 weeks ago with 17,244 notes
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little things that help ease symptoms of depression:

  • turn the lights on and open a window
  • eat something healthy and drink ice cold water
  • find a comforting album to listen to whenever things get bad
  • take a long, relaxing bath
  • do yourself up in full make up and hair
  • be around people, even if you don’t think it will help
  • watch something funny on netflix
  • wear your favorite/most comfortable outfit
  • immerse yourself in a hobby like drawing
  • lose yourself in a really good book or movie

3 weeks ago with 146,530 notes
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3 weeks ago with 445 notes
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Anonymous said:
"I've been dealing with an double assault recently. And though I'm in therapy and on meds I still find some days/things triggering of difficult to work through. My default response is suicide & hate being shipped to psychwards when I fail. What can I do in the middle of a trigger or panic attack that'll snap my mind back to reality rather than going to more dark places."

It’s difficult to deal with it when you begin to feel triggered — it’s hard not to stop spiraling once it starts, but there are methods that can help ease things, and it’s important of course to find what works best for you. Among the most important of methods is being to identify what triggers you/begins to make you feel triggered and trying to avoid it, if you can. Talking to people around you and coming to an understanding of what you need them to do for you to prevent your triggers/what to do when you are experiencing being triggered can also be greatly helpful. Of course, these things don’t always work out, because triggers can come on suddenly and unexpectedly. This page has a few ways of coping that might help you get to a better state of mind, and this page has a few steps for coping as well. But most importantly, know that being triggered is not your fault and it’s not a failure on your part.

Personally, when I begin to feel triggered, what I usually try to do is force myself away from whatever is going on and turn my mind to subjects that are completely different, that make me feel comforted or happy (or at the very least interested). It’s not always easy to pull my mind away, and sometimes I have to completely isolate myself and separate myself from people and the entire situation/setting in which I began to feel triggered. I start playing a video game, or watch a youtube video, and try to put my entire focus into it. Eventually, the strongest of the feelings begins to subside as I let myself relax with the diversion and I can begin to feel better about the situation/whatever triggered me (or I try my best not to think about it and move on).

Your therapist may have some advice to offer you that might be better, but I hope this helps you, or at least offers a start. Feel free to message me again anytime you need!

4 weeks ago
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Diary of Recovery 


So since I’m right now in probably the best mental/emotional state overall that I have ever been and I’ve been thinking about this, and especially since I have a good amount of followers now, I have something I’d like to make a post about that I don’t often talk about! You might have seen this on my blogs page before but…

Around when I first joined tumblr, I decided to open a blog called diaryofrecovery, which was a place where I could write down my thoughts and feelings and positive messages, and reblog positive things, while on my emotional journey as a survivor of sexual abuse. I always intended it to function as a safe space for other survivors as well as a journal, but for the most part it retained its original purpose. In the past year, I’ve stopped really updating as much — mainly because I’ve reached a high point in my recovery in the past year and I don’t have as much to say (not that I don’t still deal with the problems altogether). But these issues are ones I still struggle with and I know many others must be experiencing the same thing, so I wanted to make it known that I’d like to sort of ‘revive’ the blog and shift focus of the blog back to being that safe space I always wanted it to be.

There aren’t many places on tumblr of this sort that I know of, which is a big reason why it is important to me to make this post. I want people to know that there exists a place where they can speak up about their feelings or perhaps, hopefully, take something from my posts. To, at the very least, know they’re not alone.

I’m open to all sorts of messages, whether you just want to vent in my inbox without a response, share your feelings or your story, ask a question about me or for my advice (which I will give to the best of my ability) or even offer advice to other survivors if I don’t have an answer. Basically, I just want it to be a place where those who want it can come together and find solidarity amongst each other.

I’m going to try to start reblogging positivity and make posts on it more regularly, whether or not they are entries per se. I may eventually seek additional mods to help me run the blog, so don’t be afraid to let me know if that’s something you might be interested in. Please feel free to follow, engage me, and reblog this post!

4 weeks ago with 6 notes


if you miss someone who does not miss you, or who is no good for you, or is unattainable, take all the love you once felt for them and spread it around other places. put your love in worthwhile people and things, turn the romance in to passions for hobbies or admiration for others- enrich your own life. focus on yourself and those who actively make you happy.

4 weeks ago with 63,036 notes

"Our notions about happiness entrap us. We forget that they are just ideas. Our idea of happiness can prevent us from actually being happy. We fail to see the opportunity for joy that is right in front of us when we are caught in a belief that happiness should take a particular form."  - Thich Nhat Hanh (via onlinecounsellingcollege)

6 months ago with 5,985 notes
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